Finally I decided that I will keep blogging but definitely not in wordpress.com and I created a blogspot but I’m not going to use it, so I’m turning my tumblr into my main blog right now, it’s plonger.tumblr.com
I realise now that I live in a place where almost everything is conveniently set without being a particular commercial environment. Everything is just few steps (or blocks) away. I wish work and the world would be that close. This said, it’s funny how things have been simplified, such as being able to pay the bills and the rent online, to the point that I feel tired just by the thought that I have to walk 5 blocks to make a withdrawal.
I care a little bit when I’m reduntant while I’m writing (well…I apologize) but I have to say that cellphones are extremely convenient nowdays and people adore them so they manage to buy the latest models regardless of their price since there are 6-12-18 month contracts available. However, I had no idea that the term “budget phone” existed but seems that it’s even more convenient because it’s cheap, or at least it should be that way but in Latinamerica they aren’t. My cellphones before only were for make calls and as an alarm clock so the features of any other cellphone were tempting but I didn’t want to spend a lot of money…in fact, I didn’t want to spend money at all. The problem is that this model (Sony Ericsson W200a) was out of stock everytime I wanted to buy it, but finally there were some few left and I bought one for…free.
Either way, now I’m debating into keep using wordpress or move to a convenient update tool such as tumblr. However, wordpress as any other major blogging tool is about discussion through an opinion, while tumblr, twitter and etc, are more about sharing through what is going on at the moment, you don’t have to think that much. My problem is that now I can’t update as often as I can, it takes days or even weeks to sit down and finish an entry, plus the wordpress.com is a bit boring for me with the exception of this new theme that is for photoblogs, therefore it doesn’t apply to a text blog even if you try. So, if I can’t update quickly nor enjoy the look what what I’m udpating, I can pick what I think can save me from this blogging issue. And nobody cares of this blog but me.
And this all reminds me of the other Kings of Convenience. Misread is my favorite song by them and it’s from 2004 which means that time is flying and I should listen to that album again.
Oh well, last but not least, Happy mother’s day.
I always thought that being busy was a white lie that your significant other said to you when didn’ t want to talk to you…and then several “I’m busy” were covering a big fat lie, like cheating for example. But now, I’m busy, so busy that I’ve caught myself into lots of paperwork and nothing of free time other than what should be given to sleep and I’ve only checked online stuff briefly because I don’t have much time to update and worse, I’m slipping at work, which is worrying me, probably because I’m really insecure, thefore, I’m feeling like shit. But nothing makes me more shitty than the fact that someone could tell me “I’m busy” for 5 years and it turned out not to be true…in part.
I wonder how people can really handle and carry themselves. I can’t. Probably is the awful vibe I’m having at the moment. I’m still fighting to be re-located in my office and trying to leave early enough to don’t be that early and not so late to be stuck in traffic. And now I’m catching up with work and blog. Facing my emotional defeat. All this is giving me more negativity that I don’t need but I know that thing will never be in my terms but I will have to surrender to all the use and abuse of my insecure mind…because I come back home but I can’t be on my own either.
Plus, I’m sick and hungry: I want to go home. but I’m stuck in my office…I want to cry.
I’ve been watching movies. A couple of days ago I had a little free time to be home alone and I saw a movie, “Dedication“, first movie directed by actor Justin Theroux, with Billy Crudup, Mandy Moore and Tom Wilkinson. I wanted to see it for ages and I liked it even if it seemed to be underwritten at some point but had some interesting parts. It was cute. I was watching “Juno” last night. It’s funny, a bit weird too. I can’t wait to finish it as soon as I can come back home. Movies…that’s something I really need to catch up with.
Speaking of my emotional defeat, last week I bought something known as Singelringen, a ring for singles. I was hesitant at first because it’s a bit expensive (I got it for $48 while it was being introduced but I believe it’s $56) but considering that people make fun of me because I’m single at my age when almost everybody else I know is married with kids and I would be married by now if my ex wasn’t that busy, if you have read this far, you know what I’m talking about. Anyway, I have this ring that says I’m proud to be a young spinster unmarried person and I don’t care what you think about it.
I need to go home right now.
If the day has 24 hours and I get to sleep 6 hours, one hour for getting ready&breakfast and 2 hours and a half wasted in the bus (I sleep in that half hour) and 1 hour for lunch, we have 9 that I’m not online. Of course that at work of the 8 hours of work, I’m online an avergae of 5-6 hours because I have to do research.
OK. Enough about counting wasted hours of my life and back to what I was about to write today and didn’t because I was reminded that I had to work. Don’t you just love when a favorite actor has a role in a movie that looks that can do good for his/her career? I heard of Public Enemies, movie directed by Michael Mann, on the day the Academy Awards were held and while reading the cast attached to it, Johnny Depp, Christian Bale, Giovanni Ribisi and Marion Cotillard, without knowing the plot, I immediately thought that Billy Crudup should’ve been there. And last night before bedtime, I checked some movie news and oh surprise, he just joined the cast.
Now, if anything I wish could come true just like that…
To something completely unrelated yeat something I love. I listen to Swedish musicians of different genres since the later days of ABBA and I know many share this fascination, not exactly since ABBA but probably later, no doubt CNN once said that Sweden was the 3rd largest exporter of music in the world.
One genre that is left for me to discover (as I’m not familiar with it and maybe I wasn’t made to like it) is jazz. Yet, I know that the Scandinavians in general do it well and that’s the only bit of jazz that I (unfortunately) listen to. While doing my music research homework (searching for some albums to download) I came across Fredrika Stahl’s A Fraction of You, I was listening to it on the way to work and it was a lovely mix of pop-jazz which reminded me of Silje Nergaard. If you like female singers and pop jazz, you can start checking out these two or also last.fm and the compilations Jazzflora:Scandinavian Aspects of Jazz and Nordic Lounge.
Oh, it’s getting late anyway.
I remember I had an online buddy who once complained of my penchant for creating as many journal/blog accounts as possible because she couldn’t keep up with all my updates. Ironically she has created & deleted so many accounts that I don’t know how can I find her new ones…oh yeah my best friend google. As far as I’m concerned, that’s good because if you create something…it means you want to start over again and if you delete it, well…you want to start all over again.
I created a twitter and a tumblr. I can update twitter whenever I want, preferably in the bathroom or when I wake up. I don’t even have to turn the computer on for that, considering that I don’t tend to update about everything that’s going on in my life as it’s happening, twitter is quickly becoming into my new best friend…after google of course. I do believe that microblogging can be addictive but it’s better than flood your personal journal with one sentence which is usually full of shit and nonsense…I mean it’s someone from you to you.
Tumblr is a good service to share some of my love for music. Although I’m not the real music love who is into indie and such, I have my tumblr to update it with youtube videos, song quotes and my horoscope for the day. I can’t leave home without watching the horoscope on tv and wear the color they say, unless it’s white or brown, most of the time I pick something of the recommended color.
Let’s see how it all turns out. I have myspace, facebook and deviantart and I rarely update a blog there.
I really don’t know what to think of Timbaland anymore. He has produced the albums and songs of many musicians. To his credit, I can say he is capable of interesting and creative works but sooner or later you can get tired of the same beats that have captured some of his recent collaborations, sort of an inverted king Midas, he may turn melodies hits into shit by duplicating the best of one to another.
And now everybody is talking about 4 Minutes, Madonna’s new single produced by Timbaland and featuring Justin Timberlake in vocals. Some people are wondering where is Madonna’s creative input. I think it’s in the lyrics and her way of singing them. To me it sounds like Music meets Promiscuous by Nelly Furtado, both catchy songs, especially the former.
I think we all have to wait until her new album is leaked released to jugde Timbaland’s work, probably Madonna can count on him for further albums, who knows.
Holy week and I’m resting, despite the fact that I wake up with a headache everyday, probably that’s what a very shiny day can do to my eyes. Maybe I need a rest from my computer screen too or just adjust it as it had a filter before me but now it hurts while I’m reading at the morning, I guess that’s why I like to blog at nights.
Long weekend breaks are a blessing and I have plenty of them throughout the year. However, I expected to spend this quietly but my mom invited my relatives for lunch. I understand the value of my family as I’m getting older, we are very close and similar to each other. Many people had hated me because of the kind of relationship that I have with my mother (she is overprotective of myself and my money) but by talking to her on these days, I realise that she is the only reliable person I have in my life, I mean, friends and lovers come and go because of the way I am, So What is it left for me? My mom is the only one who supports me when someone else has backstabbed me. She can be critical but she doesn’t make me feel inferior nor bullies me on purpose.
It’s believed that people shows certain respect on Good Friday and I know that I should’ve been away from my computer but some livejournal users were on a “content strike” and since I’m a longtime livejournal user and I don’t have enough time to make the most of it, I just sat down, read my friends’ entries and commented. In my opinion, they should have taken into account that strike and livejournal are incompatible terms same as silence and blog. If you can have online access and decide to use it to vent and express your ideas, there is no reason to stop doing it. Therefore, you commit to voice your opinion then you have a powerful effect in your readers, regardless if they agree or disagree with you.
And it’s hard to fight for your rights when the Internet it’s so vast but it can be successful in the end. Just look at Trent Reznor: He recently released, as Nine Inch Nails, his latest album Ghosts I-IV and made $1.6 million on its first week. I’ve been a fan for 8 years and it’s one of my favorites, on the other hand, I won’t lie, I download mp3s because I know that recordstores and labels take almost all the money we pay for a CD so I only buy an album when it becomes a must have.
At first, when Napster came out, Reznor considered it a “theft” but once he learned that Universal Music Group’s retail pricing of Year Zero in Australia was $29, because “We know you have a real core audience that will pay whatever it costs when you put something out – you know, true fans. It’s the pop stuff we have to discount to get people to buy.” So he encouraged Australian fans to “steal and steal and steal some more and give it to all your friends and keep on stealin’.” The price of Year Zero in my country was $32 as of January 2008, so I asked the salespeople why it was so expensive, they said it was because it came with that price. Finally, I bought it for $19 on Valentine’s Day. Ironically, I would like to buy albums by Australian artists and I must say that Universal Music does charge for them more than the other companies such as Sony and Warner.
As an online release, Ghosts I-IV has been well planned, same can be said of the concept and the music. I’m intending to buy the 2CD version and for that I feel happy to contribute with NIN with $10, knowing that it won’t reach a local recordstore to sell it at $50 and get $1 in return.
The original title of this long awaited…I mean impending entry was Feng Shui my ass but a bird told me that there was a group called The Raveonettes there forgotten somewhere in my brain and now I’m totally hypnotized by their new song Aly Walk With Me.
So…Feng Shui anyone? should’ve been a better title. Anyways, Feng Shui anyone? My mom is a huge fan and she always is telling me about the ways to place furniture at home and at work, she sleeps with a Feng Shui book and I guess she is right. I took the FCE exam a couple of weeks ago and I didn’t go to work for that reason. When I returned to my office, I found out that my chair back was against a window. I felt completely miserable because…they should have had some common sense! I can’t that according to Feng Shui, I can’t have my chair back against a window but it’s worse to say “you have poor design and organization skills”.
By the way, I’m totally addicted to miniclip.com
I don’t think I’m cuestioning my choice to blog sometimes, in fact, I’m happy with my barely constant blogging habit. I can’t think of many things to say here other than going personal and write: Today, I made a lot of drama out of nothing, anything and evertything. It’s hard to find some inner peace as I’m often feeling confused and clueless…in fact I’m aware of it, therefore I’m not that confused or clueless. What I’m trying to say is that I take things too seriously that I see them from the wrong angle. And when it comes to blogging, it’s such a disaster…I mean, venting isn’t confessing….it it’s fun!
I recall having good Valentine’s days in recent years and none included a boyfriend. In fact I can remember when an ex didn’t call me at all and on the next day I asked what (the hell) happened and he hung up. Yeah, that was bad. So this year I had a brief date with myself, I turned into my boyfriend, bought myself a sundae and a CD, things that I rarely buy without feeling guilty about them, (I haven’t bought an original CD in 7 years or so) I have never been surrounded by so many couples in my whole life, it was incredibly romantic even if I was alone. Just wanted to share this.
And speaking of romantic, I saw the Academy Awards ceremony on Sunday night. In the 20 years that I’ve been watching it, I can’t say that they have been brilliant, but this year the overproduced glamour and magic were absent. Hopefully for we, the viewers who didn’t fall asleep during the show, there was some room for shock and emotion, which always give the Oscars that human feel we all end up talking about on the next days….and better, the acting honors went to European actors. If you weren’t of the Team Bardem until Sunday night, you have been missing the chance of discover this wonderful actor but not anymore…
I was suprised when Tilda Swinton was announced as the winner of the supporting actress category and even more, to realise that she can be funny too. Her dress was horrible but who cares, I really wanted her to win. Marion -but it’s romantic- Cotillard (if you have seen Big Fish, you will understand) was the belle of the ball by far, no matter if the US Entertainment shows, magazines and sites say otherwise, sure Katherine Heigl is a very beautiful woman but there were similar dresses while Cotillard’s was daring and had that lovely & coveted accesory.
Dad and I were discussing Austalian Open’s singles finalists and how the world is embracing this recent breed of players from different countries and it challenges our ways of thinking towards origins and race, as has happened with other sports in the past. Many were sympathetic to Jo-Wilfried Tsonga from France, the finalist of the men’s singles. His looks served to make some jokes but what can we do about it.
Recently I read an article about genetics in a family, you know…we are all related but we look different from eachother. I think genetics is probably the only bit of natural science in which I’m interested. And probably I would have pursued studies…if it wasn’t because my biology teacher said that I was a slow learner for that subject. However, she was kicked off school for teaching contraceptive methods, therefore I never reached the genetics chapter in my biology book and many of my classmates got pregnant because of their prude parents. But genetics is as simple as complicated as wonderful as cruel and even if I’ve been reading, there’s still lots of stuff that I have to learn about it.
And when it comes to genetics, it also comes to us, humans in size, shape, color and weight. Yes, weight. I was reading a Vogue UK in the library while waiting for class when I found an article on men not so concerned about women’s weight but women concerned about women’s weight. In fact, it was obsessed not concerned. And then it says: “I think that much of the time, women want to be thin so that they can dominate other, fatter women.” I don’t know you but I believe it depends on how image-conscious a place is as every culture has its beauty standards. Sometimes my mom meets her old friends and co-workers and the very first thing they say to her is that she has become fat and some even dare to say too fat. Mom is 1.54 cm and weights 70 kg so she isn’t even closer to be an obese person but she comes home and the first thing she tells me is that her friend said that she was too fat. And there are the many classmates that asked me if they were fat. Come on, you only have wide hips…that’s all. Now I’m also conscious about my weight but it’s something personal and I try to find the way to lose some, I’ve started almost a month ago and I have gained 1kg, I have to learn how to eat healthy and excercise by bits too. Oh yes, the pattern construction trick! Shirts and pants that aren’t made according the real size therefore they are smaller, I once had to buy a XL shirt when my real size is M. Awful.
I know it’s taking me too long to blog, I’ve been working, I’m sick now. I think it’s a good time to rest and think about ice-creams and ice Coke.
In the transition from unemployed to employed and from home to work, I have missed many things and gained others. I am always worried about surviving the traffic and that the office’s toilet paper can survive the day too. I come back home at nearly 10pm and I may have some minutes to talk to my parents before go to bed.
I rely on Internet to stay up-to-date with the latest news nowadays. 3 events got me surfing for a while. One of them is The Australian Open, don’t think that I’m obsessed or anything like that, is just that some games happened while I was sleeping or on the way to work so I had to check the results at its official site. The men single’s finals are at 4:30am so either me or dad will be watching in case we can wake up at that time.
Also, the Oscar nominations, I’m really surprised since I haven’t heard of most of the nominated movies, or probably I did while they were in production but I’m not even going to elaborate how horrible is that, considering that I’ve always been an enthusiast, but I guess now it’s all about the quality of the movies and the talented people involved not about who is the big box-office name or fandom hearthrob attached to them….with the exception of Johnny Depp who is very good and has many fans. And I check out Sundance Film Festival reports, reviews, blog entries, etc, especially if there’s a new movie that I’ve been following since it’s production, such as Pretty Bird and Downloading Nancy, I guess they got mixed reviews but many indepedent movies are hard to understand and watch.
Oh I forgot, now I’m looking for a good on-line music station, since I’m bored of the local ones that play the same 80’s hits over and over. I listen to npr.org to discover new stuff and Nova for its dance music selections and it loads fast. last.fm, is my favorite tool to listen to new and favs but I’m not allowed to load it at work.
So…any advice?
It’s been 6 years since I tried to blog for the first time. And I still try and try but I’m never satisfied. I feel ashamed and then I cover my blogging trails. Althought there are some things I shouldn’t tell the whole world but I end up doing it. But that whole doesn’t bother me, it’s those things. It’s me. I start my life everyday but I feel that I have overrun the possibilities of blogging and I’m taking it too seriously.
But what do I win – or lose- with blogging. In the list of pros and cons, I simply can’t think of the reasons as it all comes from my guts and therefore, I don’t have an explanation about why I want to blog. I just can’t help keeping my mouth shut and I have to share.
I hope I’m on the right way this time.
PS. Heath Ledger is dead. He was 28. I’m 28. How sad it’s to hear that someone of your same age is gone.
